Word of the Day:自己実現

I only look to nostalgic pages

as my present matches the past hand in hand

you who are I in time. I write to you.

I never forget your words

precious are all the things you carry...

in the time of eternal devotion

I guess I was really poetic here. I mean I am happy about these little love letter I left myself.

Especially since I have been in such a crappy mood lately. I guess my past self really appreciates me writing as well. I guess that is what we have in common.

Well, now we have to figure out Healthy Wage as a Paper Project now. I think it is needing another Paper to properly figure it out or I need to format it in a way that will allow me to see all the components here.

Right now it is sharing a paper with another project and it is kinda messing with my mind. I like to keep all the paper projects separate so I must have just not had paper at the time.

Which basically translate to me not taking care of myself enough ( The TODOs )

That's the whole work/life balance. If I don't do enough TODOs(life) I don't get Paper Projects (Work)

That is kind of a sad realization but it is actually true for everyone because, if you do focus too much on work, your body suffers.

Unfortunately since I am just pushing the project, i don't get any time from the stuff I written previously.

" I told myself I'd register by the 27th, but I got to make sure I can actually afford to do this. If I do, I really need to stick to my timer and make each time it goes of a must to go run errands or go for a run. "

Yea, that makes sense. I don't like the idea of doing that but that is the only way it would work.

" Also make sure all the banking issues are taken care of as we need to make sure we can accommodate the payments. "

Well that is quite annoying but I will see what I can do...

I am going to be honest, without thinking at all, I feel like we can but I do think doing the Budget Planner a bit more again wouldn't hurt.

Also another unfortunate thing I would need is someone to record me weighing myself. Or I would need to buy a full length mirror.

I don't know how I'd get around this one... So yea these are the 3 tasks basically:

• Do budget Planner
• Buy a mirror or get someone to record me once a month.
• Follow a weight loss routine/diet.

I asked mom and dad if I should push this project for now. Mom said yes but my dad said no.. I think I just need to take a break to do my TODOs really. They were only disagreeing by a little so, I feel like that means to just take a break.

I thought about doing the Face mask that is next on my TODOs and just sitting and watching a movie but, I can't relax enough to pick a show to watch.

Also going into the bathroom makes me want to clean it more than take care of my face.

This is more of my problem though. I actually have a hard time taking care of myself when I want to, and sometimes I don't even want to.

I have to realize though, I actually earned a lot of time today so I can actually take care of myself right now. I have 120 minutes stored up so... I mean if I don't want to use it on myself, what am I saving it for?