Word of the Day:寵愛

One thing that Asians and Slavics have taught me: Comfort is the lie.

As soon as you accept the bribe, or have a false sense of comfort, that is when the hunters prey on you.

I will starve myself for days before eating well, because that keeps you in the hunter's mind frame.

The "neurodivergent hunter" concept (often linked to ADHD) suggests that traits like impulsivity, high energy, and hyper-vigilance, while challenging in modern settings, were evolutionary advantages for ancestral hunter-gatherers. Proponents like Thom Hartmann argue these individuals excel at spotting patterns, high-stakes tasks, and emergency situations, functioning as "hunters in a farmer's world".

My mom said she found my dad handsome. She also liked his hands. I took that into consideration when picking men I liked as well; nice face and nice hands.

I don't mind if they're chunky or thin, but if they have a nice face and nice hands, that is attractive enough for me. It is so funny, now that I know some of the things of the one who proposed to me several times. He is sort of perfect on paper. Maybe everything I asked for... except for the drug addiction. I think the thing thing is, we live in a

normal?

What is normal? Are you evaluating yourself or are you saying these are normal things to want? Or is it normal to be a drug addict? Bruh. I mean I know what that means, I know what that entails.

It is just pain, and wanting to escape from that pain. I have my own vices too so, I am not judging. But being empathetic would mean that I would drown with you in that sorrow.

And he would, we have already suffered together. I only use drugs to purposely go into the ether, not to escape the 3D.

Also there are spiritual rules, so really if you do indulge all the vices to get into the Ether, the "angels" kick you out eventually. That is why people "jones" for stuff, because the spirits determined that they were no longer fit to be there wasting their time.

I know, it is selfish of me to admire him from afar, because it just leaves me to be stuck in a fantasy, but he admitted that we were about that much.

He had the most powerful presence in the Ether I have ever encountered. But it also sort of had a signature of death. Maybe he has killed someone before? Or maybe it is my own death I am predicting. It is scary but it is also kind of like marrying someone; " Until death do us part. In sickness and health. "

Yea, it isn't always the ones who give you the most pleasure that are meant for you. I mean, you shouldn't be with someone who just abuses you either. Everything needs balance.

But the thing is, the most point or what is a good marker of a good relationship is that both parties are able to learn and grow with each other.

Ah yes, my mind might be manipulated at the moment, I am well aware of that. But, it would be superior people doing it as I don't think I am easily manipulated anyway. Plus, we're all human at the end of the day and vulnerable to... well many things.

Oh wow, I don't think I slept long or I went to bed very early...

Looking at the clock now makes me think spirit woke me up.

Catastrophe Bonds: Q1 2026 was the second most active start to the year in catastrophe bond market history, with billion of new risk capital issued.

I am not in economics so, I don't know if this is the time to buy or sell, but risk usually means less stable in nature so, it sounds like a storm is brewing.