Our community is in a jam. How can we expand? Provide what most will not Trauma Care in this joint. Education is due for me and you. With the possibility of starting with me, giving me some type of uplift, encouragement, and motivation. I am trying to fit in although I cannot win. In this place in this space. Being me feels unnatural, different and strange somehow, I must rearrange maybe even change my mindset you see. Because it is hard being me. In the shadows of my dark pass at times I feel like a fool spinning in this whirlwind of a pool. Cannot sleep at night, needing something to hold tight. To fight this battle not only in my head. Stress, struggles, and storms why was not I told that I would get so old with these things going I might as well do something wrong. That is how I get attention not to even mention when I ask for help, I get turned around, sent back and abused, what am I to do. To learn and burn along with what we earn. Looking out is no joke for some things I will not accept while others have expectation has, I have hesitation. Reservation on you asking me to listen, learn, and change. All the while you arrange something strange in the air, that mess up my atmosphere. Acting like I am not aware of the things you do; it may be simple to you. But I must get a grip and figure out what to do or I maybe finally through with all that is going on. For I know something is wrong. Trying to figure it out, takes me and you. Can you help me understand what this is about? Can you give me some resources please, help me out? Trying to fill this vowed and not listen to all this noise that is going on in my head so strong, as I attempt to figure out what this is all about. Looking for some answers, do you have a clue? What shall I do? As I go to what I call friends that just do not understand, because they are going through it too, trying to figure what to do. We cannot do this alone; we have been trying and now we do not get along. We need your help. Society and everybody else, let us join hands and unite because that is what this demand. Yes, you and me we can do this and get through if you just have a clue there is a lot we can do, together yes you and I we do not need a spy. But those that cares and really are aware of what is going on to help make us strong, I do not think this wrong. As I am aware of what is needed to be. For, you will not allow what I have in my mind because you just want to control me instead of listening to my goal. That will get me to hold to my mind all the time, that it needs to be changed so that I will gain something that will get me far so that I can be the star to bring hope in this place, so I will not be a disgrace to change in the end so I can win. To be able to achieve the ultimate thing to heal in my pain so that I can rearrange what I felt was destined to be in all my misery that I got hope to anticipate the healing in me to get to hold on to your help so I can be what I should have long ago as I let go of my past do not you know. Trauma is real and I need to let go so I can feel what is real and now you know you know the deal. Hope, Healing, and Help all this is great.
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AS I, was born on April Fool’s in 1965 when things were peaceful, sort of cool, and not talked about. I came into this world being molested and I thought it was oh ok it did not matter anyway, even incest too, because I was too young to know what to do. My mother is a foreigner, why what else could she do. So, in my life, I stood out too. Besides being molested, raped, and doing all you can imagine as I hit puberty in which I was not told, not to miss behave and had my first child indeed, now I am grown all alone as my mom disowned me going thru her own battle for sure. She did not sleep, eat, or shower I honestly believe she was in her own tower in another world so I had to find out myself all about this place called home where all can Rome. In which I did and wish I never had, because I gave up, gave in, and lost myself in the wrong zone. I felt all alone used, abused all over again. You cannot see you become blind all the time and feel out of sort, do not know how to resort in or out as you begin a journey in learning something you thought you were yearning. As you do as you, please watch if you sneeze, sniff, and smoke now this drug world was no joke. I thought I was amongst some friends and now the truth began as they degrade you and sell you too to reach a high that they may even die. All looking for love no matter how that looks with you, him, and her all on this thing that makes you fly so high that at times you want to die. You lose it all even your kids, family, and self, in fact, you do not want anybody else, because all is gone your help, healing, and hope. You start to sing this sad song in which crying out loud for hope, hope, hope you start to think everything is a joke and you want to choke on all you see, do, and have done. Now you start to see something deep inside you and you grasp on it and come to realize, it is time to recognize, stop lying, hiding, and disguising your given voice and make a great choice to get some hope, healing, and help and that is why I with God Jehovah's help made my passion, purpose, and plan to stand up for every person in hope with Washington Hope. That is how I got me to where I reside, inside, getting to know me so I can be for you when you cannot, will not, and do not know how to come back, to somewhere that cares and even dare to stand with you all the way each day till you can stand, stomp, and star for yourself here we are, check us out, Washington Hope. Do not give up or give in because your being renewed, and the test will come because now you know all those things must go. For you to grow, in your new world don’t you know. It is time for change only if you rearrange your mindset to not regret but learn so you will not return to the old because you found HOPE, to make better choices while using your voices to say NO, I am going another way today. I have tried yours now I will try HIS. Thanks for giving me a new change now I can dance with new music that will not slow me down, nor clown, or having me looking all around. But giving me all that I need HOPE in me to see clear to get to healing so I will accept help. www.washingtonhope2020.org.
By Sharon McKellery5 years ago in Confessions
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