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Video Games and Depression
I've been enjoying video games in some form or another for almost two decades, but more prevalently since I bought an Xbox 360 in 2007. What started out as an occasional hobby became something that I love doing, a place where I made friends and somewhere to distract me from suicidal thoughts and to make me feel happy. They are something I can do to focus on something other than how I feel; they can make you feel so many different things over the course of a story. They also allow you to go places you wouldn’t ordinarily go, places you wouldn’t imagine, both real and fictional.
By Duncan Ainsworth8 years ago in Psyche
Dungeons & Dragons & Depression
"I reject your reality and substitute my own."- Adam Savage Reality, in its collective, is horrifying. I came to this conclusion a few years ago when my own battles with depression increased in intensity. On the small scale, I was struggling to deal with my own day to day life. Paying bills, rent, working, socializing, and being creative seemed like trudging through thick tar with no end in sight. Large scale problems like civil rights, war, poverty, and the laughingstock that is our political system seemed like insurmountable problems, but I worried about them all the same. It seemed this world was just not worth living in anymore.
By Sean Fraser8 years ago in Psyche
Conquering a Life’s Worth of Depression in a Semester
Conquering a Life's Worth of Depression in a Semester 09/22/17 Sobbing tears streamed down my face today again. I've been thinking about this for some time, writing all this down. I used to write as a child, it seems like that's all I had, pen and paper. That's all I could tangibly hold onto. In fact, that's all I did hold on to, were my writings. My journals provide proof that I did not falsify the information in my head, it is not over exaggerated, and I will not be made a mockery or be treated as such. I documented everything, well everything or anything that was worth documenting, to me. I have multiple journals of diary entries, poems, writings of heartache, writings of the repercussions that one faces when their parent is consumed by a mental illness, and the system is to entangled in itself that it truly fails to notice, fails to notice the agonizing screams of a six-year-old that begs her mother to stop having sex in the room next to her.
By Stable Nomad8 years ago in Psyche
Earth Shattering
Have you ever felt your heart breaking so deeply you can look in the mirror and see the earth quake that's ripping your soul apart? Nothing was supposed to be this way, this wasn't supposed to happen, but it did. There is no going back, There is no making it right. No more I love you, no more long nights..
By T Christine8 years ago in Psyche
Self Harming
In this essay, I’m going to briefly discuss and hopefully alter your perspective on certain aspect of the mental ‘illness’, typically termed “Self Harming” or “Self Harming Behaviour”. I present three interrelated points, the literal definition of the word, its nature within reality, and finally a brief juxtaposition with the Taoist Yin Yang notion.
By Ashley Kent8 years ago in Psyche
Chasing the Spoon
I have been dreaming about sharing my story for quite some time now. There have been internal battles on whether or not to share it with the world. I had fear of being judged, ridiculed, laughed at, etc. There is such a stigma placed on addicts, alcoholics, and criminals, and with good reason too. My goal in starting this blog is to lift that stigma. I know that I cannot do that with everyone in the world. But if I can allow just one person to see recovering addicts, alcoholics, and criminals in a different light then my job is done.
By Olivia Scott8 years ago in Psyche
Hold On a Little Bit More
Normal people don’t understand depression. I don’t understand it either, but I can at least say how it feels, and how it has affected me. Someone would say, "hey, you’re just sad," or, “it’s not a big deal, go and pray to Jesus and it will pass." However, what I think when they say that is: “Jesus” doesn’t have a magic pill, you know? And IF he exists, he probably hates me.
By Mariposa Blanca8 years ago in Psyche
